close your eyes.

josie is this "cute" little fourteen year old girl everybody believes who always has a smiling mask on her face. she kisses the stars, makes a wish on 11:11 every night, and this particular special day, march the sixteenth. born in, living in, attending in, toronto ontario, a middle school, somewhere over the rainbow. she likes getting personal, she's one flirtacious short person , short as 4'8, one of the reasons she suffers from bipolar, paranoia, heartbreak, and several other illnesses. believes rainbow dinosaurs are real, has the most craziest friends ever, believes she's half icecream and whippedcream, likes being crazy, downtownerr, bisexual, a little too light as 72lbs , talks a lot, loves to interact, can't achieve anything higher than a seventy. work wonders with a camera, and therapy with other people, just not herself. loves photography and photoshopping, manipulations of course. she's also spazztastic & is proud of having a messed up smile.

♥ money
♥ cute / fobby trucker hats
♥ ~~new contacts~~.
♥ striped shorts.
♥ oversized superman top. (:
♥ discover who i want to be
♥ ~~black&white nikes~~.
♥ FOBBY long necklaces.
♥ SLR camera
♥ save up more more more money. (:
♥ lots of baggy hoodies
♥ black converse.

mm, be right back . formspring hacked. :/

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

the title of my blog post is:
Complications. @!$# .

I'm seriously hoping this blog post will be long.
After this, I gotta cram / study.
I'll blog for like an hour.
I'll try. :)
Basically these are all rants. If I put it in proper grammar, it means either I care, and I'm trying to be serious, or I just feel like doing this. :D

rant number ONE.
friends forever. ; u;
(sad rant. T__T'' .. i don't feel like typing "Like this anymore.". )
/sigh . i know i'm acting paranoid.. :/ i think. x:

grade seven was seriously my best year , EVER.
the pressure was off, we had our friends, our group, and i had kevin. ; u;

now this year,
the pressure is ON. our friend's got split into two other groups, and he left me.
but come to think of it, my home problems last year were terrible. hm. :|

Bianca, Kevin Tieu, Thich, Farabi and I always hang out after-school now.
Bianca became like, my best friend.
It's not a bad thing ~ but I miss hanging out with Teresa and like, Kevin, Claire, Angy, Linda, Sally, Rachel, Peiyi, etc etc. TT______TT

I'm a stupid person. :/
I'm like that awkward little girl that joins in a conversation, when everything becomes quiet, she just stares at you. 'because she has NOTHING to say.

So it's not just Kevin I miss..
It's everyone. ; u;
Obviously we talk on MSN and stuff, but .. I hate how I'm so awkward irl..
Which brings me to my second rant.

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rant number TWO [ this is annoying .. ]
The internet me. The IRL me. @_______@
I'm kinda pissed at myself.

I've heard it once before, and i'm not going to deny it.. this time. :|
I THINK I act different from me being online, to real life.
I'm really social online, .. not so much in real life.
:/ plus my mouth keeps blurting out strange words that I don't even think about saying in my head, and i'm so awkward in real life.. T_____________T
I would usually go "hi" in a group of like seven or eight friends, they're all talking, and once it's quiet, I stare. WHAT THE FUCK. @_________________@
I'm so.. strange. :/ I've tried being myself. IT'S. NOT. WORKING.
I need a psychologist. T_____T

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and my god number THREE rant
I AM NOT DATING HIM OH MY GOD.

Timmy is a touchy person.
(Timmy Le oh my god never Timmy Ma. D<) He admits it, but you annoy the frick outta me' even though I've said it once a million times too many.
YOU ARE ALEX RYAN. / SASHA / WHATEVER THE FUCK YOUR NAME IS.
well DUH i'm afraid to say that to your face. :|

I don't hate you, quite frankly if you want me to hate you I DON'T CARE. I STRONGLY DISLIKE people who pick on others for no frigging reason. Why the hell would someone do that?
Yeah, you're stupid you admit it, so let me try to put this in a way you will understand.

TIMMY
NOT
DATING
ME
GET THAT INSIDE YOUR EMPTY HEAD
2+2
YOUR FACE. :|

which brings me onto rant number FOUR.

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MISSING A DAY OF SCHOOL WHEN YOU'RE SICK.

It's hell. You've already fell behind like a week, you don't know how to do this equation and whatever, and people treat you like you're one of the stupid children.
(No offense intended). @__@" Honest.

argh. seriously man. I missed FOUR things.
- Geo quiz { forgot to study } WHAT THE HELL IS POPULATION DISTRIBUTION ; n;

-MATH QUIZ TOMORROW <- thank god i'm studying / cramming tonight.

- Science quiz YESTERDAY <- But since Mr.Jackson is super nice, he let us take a day and study because we were absent ~ > w< - Science Title Page <- Due in two days. :| MUST. FINISH. TOMORROW ! which leads me to my other rant.
STUPID BRAINS.

I must've forgotten a million things on my test. Like seriously,
YES I'M BLAMING MY BRAIN. T 0T
So after I finally got GCF // LCM down, WE SWITCHED ONTO THE NEXT TOPIC. T__T
after the trees and shit, WHEN I FINALLY GOT IT DOWN, WE SWITCHED IT ONTO THE NEXT TOPIC.

+ Timmy Le told me there was a geo quiz yesterday.
/face palm. I suck.

MORE TO COME LATER. T________T

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