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innocence.
sup.'

josie is this "cute" little fourteen year old girl everybody believes who always has a smiling mask on her face. she kisses the stars, makes a wish on 11:11 every night, and this particular special day, march the sixteenth. born in, living in, attending in, toronto ontario, a middle school, somewhere over the rainbow. she likes getting personal, she's one flirtacious short person , short as 4'8, one of the reasons she suffers from bipolar, paranoia, heartbreak, and several other illnesses. believes rainbow dinosaurs are real, has the most craziest friends ever, believes she's half icecream and whippedcream, likes being crazy, downtownerr, bisexual, a little too light as 72lbs , talks a lot, loves to interact, can't achieve anything higher than a seventy. work wonders with a camera, and therapy with other people, just not herself. loves photography and photoshopping, manipulations of course. she's also spazztastic & is proud of having a messed up smile.

11:11 ♥

money
♥ cute / fobby trucker hats
new contacts.
♥ striped shorts.
♥ oversized superman top. (:
discover who i want to be
black&white nikes.
♥ FOBBY long necklaces.
SLR camera
save up more more more money. (:
♥ lots of baggy hoodies
♥ black converse.

hearts talking.

mm, be right back . formspring hacked. :/

alternative exits.

andric arnie ani brenda breana bunny doll cecilia class 85 diana daniel eugene haley janet joyce kathy kevin khashi lea lei lee ann linda lisa mariam michelle tanallover teresa thinoba peiyi sally samiha shirley sung rachel reilly ryan timmy timmy valerie xinyi yuting zuzu

my days, not yours.

April 2009
May 2009
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November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
September 2011

thank you.

editing; yours truly (:
basecodes; Kary-yan/Missyan.
hosts; x o x

Friday, August 28, 2009

kevin hung out the day after our anni. yeeaah :)
i got to snuggle with him thoughh. finally. ♥


the only exciting thing about me is gaia.
/sigh
the new rigs are awesome.. kinda.. not.
i blew 300k on them, and made 1.5m profit. very good :3
kinda hanging in exchange moar..
iunnoo i still love the AT.

god. everyone's telling me how great global is.
it makes me want to cry.

WHEN I'M NOT EVEN ON POKEMON WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?
I NEED TO GET ON MORE. BUT I SLAVE MYSELF TO GO TO THE AT FOR SOME REASON.
or at least draw.

anyway i'm frigging tired because its 6AM - -
so.. bye bye my loviess.


5:53 AM


Monday, August 24, 2009

dear diary.

i am having a .. good time tonight
kevin and i .. made up? yeah we're talking :)
he's playing maple while i`m blogging about this ! :)

today was a neutral day.
i found out chyzu wanted to call teresa when we were talking
oopsies. sorry about that chyzu ! ><;;
but yeaaaaah. ;-;

-sigh-
iimm boreeeeedd
buttttttt hyperrrrrrrrrrr.
yaaah.

i hope to bug sofia before university starts
oh yah mom not sleeping in room tonight (y)(y)(y) !


ow i bruised my elbow ; u;


1:32 AM


Sunday, August 23, 2009

i feel great this morning.
venting on msn with teresa and lana feels so much better.
and talking on the phone, and yeeeeeahhhh. :)
-stretch-

(yn) more later.


10:57 AM


Saturday, August 22, 2009

[start SHORT rant]
one of the things that pisses me off the most
is when you play around of the fact that i`m being serious or not.
/ randomness.
second thing that pisses me off the most
IS WHEN YOU FUCKING REPEAT SOMETHING MORE THEN ONE TIME
I
AM
NOT
DEAF.
third thing that pisses me off the most is that WHEN SOMETHING IS DIRTY
NOBODY BOTHERS TO FREAKING CLEAN IT UP AND I HAVE TO STEP IN IT. MY GOD.
[/end SHORT rant]



[ start MEANINGFUL rant ]
i`m listening to "Shut Up" - Black Eyed Peas ♥
and now i paused the music.

It annoys me when you sound annoyed.
I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE GET ANNOYED AT ME FOR NO DAMN REASON.
Oh, if I ever seemed "rude" to you, it's because you pissed me off.
I HAVE NEVER bitched at someone for no reason. I might not have told you the reason, which i don't anyway, like 99% of the time. 1% = you're special.
~
I hate people who are more annoying than me. ._____.
They constantly MSN you and go, HIIIIIIII ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
HIIIIIIIIIIII ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
AREE YOOOOOOUU TEREEEEEEEEE? ♥♥♥♥

like what the fuck is that all about ?
and yes, i kinda` hate YAWAS. :)'
& whatever. you know the last thing i hate about my life the most?


I hate being alone.
As an only child's perspective, it seriously gets boring, lonely, and scary sometimes >_>
I hate it when the one i`m thinking about the most, does not bother to talk to me.
:/ You ALL know who i'm talking about. eep. i resumed the music and it's Mad - Neyo.
"asking questions like you already know"
sound familiar?

-sigh- My heart keeps hurting.
When I feel sad, I want to talk to this one person.
i`m starting to tear. -.-'' that cares about me . and i know, they're thinking of me.
Now that I think about it, the others have, always. Just.. this once.
Is that being spoiled? Or common sense?
Oh my god my head hurts too badly. & I'm going to plead, that my wish will come true.
Love is a small thing, that blooms. Either beauti--
... i forgot i had farmville.. oops. / /whatever they all died anyway and i`m dirt poor
OOPS OKAY ANYWAAAAAAY BACK ON TOPIC !
Love can be two things.
Something that makes you. Something that is ORGASMIC to you. -cough- literally -cough-
You get my point. It's amazing, it's the only thing that keeps you from living.
Or it can break you. Make you feel like you're the only one living, in a lonely world.
I doubt anybody wants to be alone. Whether it's friends, relationships, or family.
Nobody.

Wow my "make or break" speech was supposed to be heart touching.
well, I did become dumber. Oh well. XDDD;;
okay lets try again.
Love is the middle. You either go up or down.
Love will kill you , if you don't make the right choice.
Or Love will make you feel like the most special--
oh okay fuck this i hate my life. i got dumber
anyway. the point is. I don't know where I am. I really don't
Why don't you guide me?
Oh and yeah.
it's not only this i`m getting so worked up about.
Think of me for once. As I wait here, in front of a computer screen, dying away inside.
I bet you don't even know how I feel. Oh yeah' I`m in tears by now.
I don't care if anybody else tries to make me smile.
I only want one person.
I am afraid to speak my mind. Very afraid. OKAY SO MY BROWSER IS LAGGING AND IM GOING TO SUBMIT THIS NOW.

in summary:
why won't you call..


7:44 PM



gee. you sound so pissed when i forget something.


haven't been blogging
too lazy. gotta' get ready for school.
geebus christ .

/////////
so scary. this woman knocked on my door and asked what my name was. i was like, shiiiiit w/e.
so i told her. eeeeeeeep . - -'' looked like some advertiser though. XDD
wow im extremely uncomfortable. i think i`m going to sleep some moar .

AT is love. :)


12:23 PM


Tuesday, August 18, 2009

i just had a bloodtest yesterday.
i completely forgot until i couldn't sleep last night >_>
.. or was it the day before yesterday -dizzy-

i felt queesy. and so yehs. >:'' my doctor thinks i have low blood pressure.
which i clearly don't. likie mahgod.


kevin was supposed to come over too
T ///////T but he didnt call me


enough about that
im sooooooo tired i dont feel like blogging at all any more. D8
but i felt guilty because everyone keeps telling me to update
sooooooooooooooo
nothing going on im terribly afraid
i feel sick
and theres only TWENTY THREE MORE DAYS OF SUMMER :gonk:

and terribly addicted to gaiaonline, yet again .____.
i got my class headphones <33333
goodbye quest for DJs
.. and 800k along with angelic manner @_@


7:58 PM


Monday, August 17, 2009

so. damn. much.
thanks for everything . really.

fuck it.
i`m in extreme pain.
and sneaking on.

/// was it worth it? god i need to go see a therapist.
tears..
my head.
maybe my glasses?


1:29 AM


Saturday, August 15, 2009

and i posted a long ass entry at like, 12pm
what the fuck is that >:

-- will edit laterr.

9:07 PM


Thursday, August 13, 2009

-insert crying emoticon here-

so time to blog about pokemon.
[ms]

1. daniel quit . shiiiiiiit.
2. ryan, timmy, rachel, rizzo, got hired.
3. rizzo and rachel got sacked . ryan, timmy and rachel stay. [ other rachel ]

honestly.
daniel was right .
quality > quantity.

maybe it's because we all hang out in different groups . but some people can`t do shit work
except timmy . god i envy him so bad.

-- anyway back on task . Daniel was an amazing GM. ' he just told me earlier
that he'd resign as GM, but i never knew, he would quit the whole thing .
however, school is majorly important . daniel , if you are reading this , you better get a boost up, or you've quit for nothing .

everybody wants you back . i`m not going to even try to convince you .
you know why ? you're stubborn and cold-hearted. D8

but seriously . >>;; do you think new GMs offend you ? even though you-- wait .
no. you don`t. you think they can't do shit . but what if there was some way to prove to you?
well that's what i was doing to lawrence, and so far, hmmmmm. whatever. I just wish you'd come back to visit us one in a while . remember? Favourite GM.
besides, they might make me code daniel, DON`T DO THIS TO ME - insert that grabbing for freedom onion emoticon here- i can't code for shit mhan . :|

so current GM team? Oliver, Ashley, Timmy, Ryan, Rachel, Lawrence, Austin, Raj, Hewson.. <- I think, umm.. oh yeah lesnotforget Ian, ... and... I FEEL LIKE I`M MISSING SOMEONE REALLY REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT . T_______T

oh well . -flail arms-
so, what the hell was te point of this whole blogpost?

Daniel, we will miss you . -does a saluting hand pose-
Seriously, if your grades don't improve, be prepared for a screaming little girl.
TTYL. Hopefully. :/




YES I REALIZE ITS 12:50 AND I`M NOT ASLEEP YET OKAY?!


12:40 AM


Wednesday, August 12, 2009

i really want to sleep a proficient pace now . i slept at 8 but woke up at 10, because of a nightmare.
how wonderful is it not? it wasn`t .. so long that i forgot everything . there was just one main part.

forever broke.
and he got together with her.

i've been having so many dreams like that lately
am i being paranoid?
probably am. after watching the films and short clips about the movie :(
but.. i cant quite seem to put my finger on it.

:'/ oops . i forgot to go back to ventrilo n un;; for like 5 weeks.
mahbad . -rolls eyes-

i`m going to sleep at 12am today .
i`m going to his place tomorrow, god fuck it it better not rain. :/
i just HAD to wake up. the strange details were, literally strange.

I was dating someone, someone .. I recognize, but during my whole dream, all I saw was a shadow for his face. HOPEFULLY "HIS". @_@;;

and, me and A went to eatons together, A got mad at me, I saw S and K, and.. then we went shopping all together. but at the end , I saw him and her, kissing. It was like, christmas, we were all friends, and I just, froze. I managed to keep a smile on my face though. How strange. :/

Now we talk even less now . It worries me , I don't always want to say the first word.
But , I feel like I can't see through him anymore, he's just closed up.
It may be just me, but I'm definitely going to solve out why I had that particular.. nightmare?
Oh and all my friends saw too, and whoo'd . It would be a story too good to be true.
Then I woke up. Thinking, what the hell.


sometimes i feel utterly useless,
when i don't know what the meaning of life is.


10:56 PM


Tuesday, August 11, 2009

WARNING : FUCKING WALL OF TEXT. don`t say i didn`t warn you so.


get ready.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:08 AM):
*Lawrence
*I need you to do me
*A HUGE FAVOUR.
Mudkip says (4:08 AM):
*Yes
*What would that be?
*And I like the proper British spelling of favour
*;D
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:08 AM):
*Please stop posting in ban appeals. T_T;; I think that so called "kiper" have his hopes up high now.
*I don`t know whether to believe it or not. LOL.
*And, in canada, that's how you spell it.
*Canada*
Mudkip says (4:08 AM):
*Hahahaha.
*Well
Mudkip says (4:09 AM):
*Let me tell you seomthing.
*Something.
*Josie.
*Have you ever read
*the manga
*or seen the anime
*Deathnote.
*Everyone has.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:09 AM):
*Yes.
Mudkip says (4:09 AM):
*Good.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:09 AM):
*- face palm -
Mudkip says (4:09 AM):
*Do you know
*what L does a lot.
*?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:09 AM):
*YOU.
*ARE.
*NOT.
*L.
*:|
Mudkip says (4:09 AM):
*NO
*FOR GOD'S SAKES
*I'M NOT CATCHING A KILLER
*BUT SLOW DOWN.
*What you do is, see.
* When you want to see
*test for innocence
*you don't go
*YOU R HEX
*you play along.
Mudkip says (4:10 AM):
*You act friendly.
*You offer a chance.
*This is filter 1.
*Learn a little here, k.
*Diplomacy.
*If they agree to help you
*they pass test 1
*ItsBroBro failed that.
*Okay
*so now
*you know two possibilites.
*1) they lie, they hack
*2) they don't, they were there by bad luck
*Okay
*So now
*by Pascal's hypothesis or whatever the hell he said
*When you have two choices
Mudkip says (4:11 AM):
*One is beneficial
*One is not.
*In his case,
*never mind
*okay
*for this guy
*He either KiPEs or he doesn't.
*If he does, we go a little further.
*If he doesn't, then he doesn't.
*This seems like a lot of trouble but it's better than hoping you didn't post a ban appeal on Josie's special day.
*Anywayyysss
Mudkip says (4:12 AM):
*Once they agree, they're either flat out lying or desperate to prove they're innocent
*now you get names
*IGNs
*igns
*from his friend
*this isn't one ban
*this isn't one hacker
*somebody was kipeing
*and now there are ULTRA BALLS ALL OVER THE PLACE.
*A lot have been converted so it's a lot harder to find
*Now you have to figure out
*trace it back to the beginning
*wash out the economy
*and
*you
*aren't
*going
*to
*do
*that
*without
*help.
Mudkip says (4:13 AM):
*If he lies, then that's too bad, stay banned.
*That's the "meh" option.
*Beneficial would be, he gives away the next person in line, who may or may not be the KIPer, and we win.
*Like I said, you can take some ban appeals seriously, and some not
*but we are talking about THOUSANDS HERE
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:13 AM):
*OKAY
Mudkip says (4:13 AM):
*ENOUGH TO SERIOUSLY SCREW THE ECONOMY
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:13 AM):
*SHUT UP
*I GET IT
*LOL
Mudkip says (4:13 AM):
*OKAY
*DO YOU GET IT
*GOOD.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:13 AM):
*dude wall of text man
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:14 AM):
*i cant comprehend all that!
Mudkip says (4:14 AM):
*I just want to make it clear this isn't an ordinary case, somebody KIPed.
*Okay
*make this clear.
*Make him help.
*If he lies, stay ban.
*If he gives names, and we cross check with DB, wipe and unban.
*Tell him.
*That's it.
*Political ways are troublesome but they work.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:15 AM):
*kk you just wasted telling me for nothing
*1 . i didnt understand anything
*2. i didnt bother to read it
*3. oliver banned him
*gg
Mudkip says (4:15 AM):
*Well
*1. That's too bad, you're not getting anywhere
*2. That's too bad, you have terrible ethics
*3. Ok, that's his decision then.
*All I was trying to do is make your decisions less arbitrary
*That's all.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:15 AM):
*1. I DONT NEED TO READ WALL OF TEXTS. T -T
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*..
*what the hell is arbitrary
*@_@
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*WHY IS IT THAT WHENEVER I TRY TO HELP THE COMMUNITY SOMEBODY FLAMES ME OUT
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*..
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*It means
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*Dude.
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*biased.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*Calm down. o__o
*I`m honestly kidding.
*LOL.
*I`ve read half of it.
*X_X;;
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*Well
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*Which is scary.
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*if you were serious
*about your job.
*You are the unban GM
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*I AM SERIOUS ABOUT MY JOB.
*D:
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*of one of the greatest servers ATM.
*Good.
*Okay
*Now
*do you want to do your job well
*or be crap.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*Lol, this is hilarious coming from a lower rank.
Mudkip says (4:16 AM):
*And be like OH SHE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT LET'S GO PLAY NOOBMS
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:16 AM):
*:)
Mudkip says (4:17 AM):
*OHO!
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:17 AM):
*..
*NoobMS?
Mudkip says (4:17 AM):
*I GOT IT!
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:17 AM):
*Wtf.
Mudkip says (4:17 AM):
*Hahahaha.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:17 AM):
*Woow.
Mudkip says (4:17 AM):
*I knew this.
*I win.
*Yes.
*I've been playing you as well, Josie. Your overconfidence stems from your incredible pride.
*Ego.
*Enough ego to fill a blimp.
*You won't listen to me
*because
*I'm
*rank
*4
*and you
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:17 AM):
*I have no ego, you're hilarious.
Mudkip says (4:17 AM):
*are
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:17 AM):
*LMFAO
Mudkip says (4:17 AM):
*1.
*Okay
*Sure
*say what you want.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:17 AM):
*I JUST MEARLY STATED THAT
*It doesn`t mean anything !
Mudkip says (4:18 AM):
*Merely?
*Merely
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:18 AM):
*Yes.
Mudkip says (4:18 AM):
*YOu know what that was
*in psychology
*that is
*a Freudian slip
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:18 AM):
*..
*STOP
*USING
*BIG
*WORDS.
*D:
Mudkip says (4:18 AM):
*I'm not.
*Okay
*Put it simply.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:18 AM):
*YES YOU ARE.
Mudkip says (4:18 AM):
*You, being angry that I was telling you how to do your job
*retaliatied by reminding me that being lower than you, I have no right to.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:18 AM):
*..
*No.
*I didn`t say that.
*1. I am not angry. LOL
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:19 AM):
*2. I MERELY STATED THAT O_O
*DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO HAVE SUCH A EXPLAINATION?
Mudkip says (4:19 AM):
*1. I'm not talking about you outwards, inwardly. This is psychology, not weather.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:19 AM):
*O_O
Mudkip says (4:19 AM):
*2. Statements give everything away
*The reason I drew the comparison
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:19 AM):
*..
Mudkip says (4:19 AM):
*to Deathnote
*is because the entire story
*is a battle of psychological wits
*Light vs L
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:19 AM):
*I know that.
Mudkip says (4:19 AM):
*Good
*You get that much.
Mudkip says (4:20 AM):
*You also know
*that all they needed
*to convict a Kira
*was a single statement
*and maybe 3-4 bits and pieces of proof.
*A single slip up
*by either
*and it's over.
*One statement.
*So when you slip, don't think it's that easy to say "oh haha didn't mean that".
*;D
Mudkip says (4:21 AM):
*I'm just trying to help you.
*Whether or not you read this
*Hopefully you'll be more careful.
*OKAY, POINT IS.
*1) ALWAYS APPROACH BAN APPEALS FROM A LOGICAL STANDPOINT.
*WHAT DID THEY DO - CHANCES THEY DID THAT - PUNISHMENT.
*THREE FACTORS. THAT'S IT.
Mudkip says (4:22 AM):
*2) WATCH WHAT YOU'RE SAYING BECAUSE EVERYONE IS MANIPULATIVE
*3) ;D BE HAPPY!
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:27 AM):
*- _daniel . [SS#1] ('.') says (4:25 AM):
*Mudkip says:
I was using my big words and mind tricks
Mudkip says:
finally got Josie
Mudkip says:
to condescend me.

*...
Mudkip says (4:28 AM):
*Yep
*I win, right?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:28 AM):
*THERE WAS NO WIN OR LOSE
*-HEADDESK-
Mudkip says (4:28 AM):
*You think?
*You really think so?
*Life is war, and I won a battle, realize it or not.
*My purpose was simple
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:29 AM):
*Life is not a war.
*:|
Mudkip says (4:29 AM):
*...
*I'm sorry, you don't read much news, do you?
*There hasn't been 50 years in human history without a war going by.
Mudkip says (4:30 AM):
*All of recorded human history.
*You and Daniel can have your side conversations
*I don't mind.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:30 AM):
*..
*Im not even
*speaking to daniel
Mudkip says (4:30 AM):
*I'll just sit here and wait.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:30 AM):
*.__.
Mudkip says (4:30 AM):
*Then why does he continually quote you?
*And why do you quote him?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:30 AM):
*o_o
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*WHAT THE HELL
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*Don't lie, it's not good for your health.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*ARE YOU TALKNIG ABOUT
*We're not talking..
*...
*He just told me that
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*At the moment?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*like
*2 minutes ago
*yes
*At hte moment
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*Not at the moment.
*But you were.
*You did. Discussing this topic.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*that one practice-
*..
*OKAY
*FINE
*YOU WIN
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*If you say so.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*DAMN MAN
*BECOME A LAWYER
*= =
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*Are you angry?
*;D
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*No
*LOL
*i`m amused
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*Good.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*Greatly
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*As am I
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:31 AM):
*Im not even tired anymore
*LOL
Mudkip says (4:31 AM):
*because you managed to walk
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*into every single psychological trap I could think of.
*Wow, Deathnote is good.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:32 AM):
*If I tried
*I would win.
*n un
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*I think I will idolize Light.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:32 AM):
*.. That's just scary.
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*Not at all
*Deathnote is a little over the top
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:32 AM):
*Your idolizing, a fake, voice.
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*At least
*the book itself.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:32 AM):
*You idolize the writer.
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*I don't
*Yes
*the writer
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:32 AM):
*not Light.
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*actually
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:32 AM):
*Geesh.
Mudkip says (4:32 AM):
*the personality
*that the writer created
Mudkip says (4:33 AM):
*however, I prefer Light, easier to type.
*Do you want to know the truth, Josie?
*Why I'm here?
*In PMS?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:33 AM):
*Hm. Lets see.
*You're probably going to try to take revenge on us
*for the second time.
Mudkip says (4:33 AM):
*Oh no, not at all.
*Revenge?
*I have nothing to be vengeful of.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:33 AM):
*Reporting to Nexon as of last year.
*f3
Mudkip says (4:34 AM):
*Luls?
*Are you trying to trap me?
*I see
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:34 AM):
*You tell me.
Mudkip says (4:34 AM):
*If I deny it
*Then you will say, like any middle schooler can figure out
*HAH YOU MUST BE LYING CAUSE IT'S NOT TRUE
*If I agree
*Then it's obvious
*I got this one in 6th grade.
*Do you like that girl?
*If he says no, it's cause he doesn't want you to know
*If he says yes, then duh.
*As this is a trick question
Mudkip says (4:35 AM):
*And as nobody ratted to Nexon, Lloyd Korn found us
*Having launched their own Crusades
*There is no answer.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:35 AM):
*you put it on your blog :|
Mudkip says (4:35 AM):
*No.
*My blog said.
*I anticipated your downfall.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:35 AM):
*And what do you know, Nexon shut Sydney down.

Who called it? Who called it?

(I did.)

Mudkip says (4:35 AM):
*I saw it coming from a mile away.
*Do you know
*what the term
*"calling it"
*means?
*What does it refer to?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:35 AM):
* Looks like I got banned just in time . Well, Mr. Korn or whatshisface lawyer is at it again,
Mudkip says (4:36 AM):
*Yes.
*OH
*I KNOW
*When did you join SMS
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:36 AM):
*Umm.
*I think December 12
Mudkip says (4:36 AM):
*Okay.
*You missed some interesting things.
*Maybe my blog would make more sense
*to someone who had been around just a month or two longer
Mudkip says (4:37 AM):
*Let me explain.
*Do you remember
*the Godly GMs?
*At least, that's what I called them. ;D
*Matt, Eason, Patrick, the bnch
*bunch
*Actually
*screw this
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:37 AM):
*Yes.
Mudkip says (4:37 AM):
*I doubt you've eread any of my rants.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:37 AM):
*o_o
*YES I DID
*FFS.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:38 AM):
*EVERY
*SINGLE
Mudkip says (4:38 AM):
*Rants + Blog = Understand!
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:38 AM):
*WORD
*DO NOT STOP
*oh your old bog
*blog
*i kinda read
*but most was rl stuff
Mudkip says (4:38 AM):
*I meant The Average Player
*The Average GM
*I more or less chronicled.
*From the time that I joined
Mudkip says (4:39 AM):
*I joined at the height
*IMO
*of awesomness
*everyone was helpful
*I came straight from failGMS
*so it was incredible
*I loved every minute of the game
*Nick
*Seiryu
*you cannot have forgotten him
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:39 AM):
*He still plays sometimes.
*:|
Mudkip says (4:39 AM):
*Good
*When I joined
*he was one of the GMs, the best.
*The very day I joined
*He hosted an event
*I won
Mudkip says (4:40 AM):
*now
*shortly after this one
*he hosted a second event
*lag spike
*next thing I know
*Carol banned me.
*In the Ban Appeals section
*I posted a Ban Appeal
*And right away
*Nick stuck up for me
*he knew there was a lag spike
*he knew these glitches were common
Mudkip says (4:41 AM):
*and San said ok, unbanned.
*After that
*I thought that any GM
*willing to go out of their way to help players was incredible.
*Never before seen in GMS.
*After I while I got really mad.
*The community started sucking after the DDoSing
*and Lloyd Korn's attack #1
*And it basically
Mudkip says (4:42 AM):
*died.
*Godly GMs all quit or became inactive
*towards the end
*not much fun anymore
*v62 released
*at this point
*or so Rafiki told me
*I was nearing promotion to GM
*not sure at all but
*this was a while ago
*anyways
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:42 AM):
*I was there ; o;
Mudkip says (4:42 AM):
*I was playing v62
*yeah
*remember
*the whole thing
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:42 AM):
*Yep.
Mudkip says (4:42 AM):
*with epic chickens?
*Big mistake to trust a stranger
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:42 AM):
*o-o
*Wait
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:43 AM):
*what
Mudkip says (4:43 AM):
*My awesome plan to help v62 failed
*I ended up banned
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:43 AM):
*What?
*I didn`t even find out
*why you got banned
Mudkip says (4:43 AM):
*For "screwing the economy"
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:43 AM):
*OHH
*YEAH
Mudkip says (4:43 AM):
*Apparently Sunny might have seen this as a betrayel of trust
*almost to GM
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:43 AM):
*That was Sungy though.
Mudkip says (4:43 AM):
*Yeah Sungy.
*About to promote me
*suddenly
*this guy
*Eminize
*appears
*says
*APOKAMOKA GAVE ME 40K CHICKENS
Mudkip says (4:44 AM):
*Sungy enraged, bans me from both servers
*I was like
*BAH
*IF THE COMMUNITY SUCKS
*TO THE POINT
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:44 AM):
*Oh yeah, Phil
Mudkip says (4:44 AM):
*I CANNOT TRUST ANYONE
*I QUIT.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:44 AM):
*-chuckles-
Mudkip says (4:44 AM):
*Fastforward a little
*Oliver is depressed
*following death of SMS
*talks about remaking PMS
*in this time
*I got to talk to him more
*because without SMS to continually reinflate his ego
Mudkip says (4:45 AM):
*he could descent a little to talk to me ;D
*Stuff blah blah
*blah blah
*politics blah
*shit blah
*I ended up coding a little here and there
*most failed
*but long story short
*I ended up rank 4 GM on PMS.
*Better than where I was in SMS though.
*However
*the reason why
*I hang around Ban Appeals
*is because
*2 things.
Mudkip says (4:46 AM):
*1) I remember what Nick did for me and I want to make it so that the community might get second chances, like they used to
*2) Watashi wa Kira des.
*Any questions?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:46 AM):
*Yeah.
Mudkip says (4:48 AM):
**jeapordy music plays while Josie types*
**jeopardy
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:49 AM):
*1. STOP POSTING IN THE BAN APPEAL, pretty please? sparkly
2. demo, mojidoori omaesan ina Kira, desu.

*I DONT LIKE REMEMBER JAPANESE WORDS.
*T_T
*REMEMBERING*
Mudkip says (4:49 AM):
*I will respect your wishes
*if you tell me
*why.
*Why can't I help?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*No, its just easier for me
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*After all, I'm a defender of justice. *swishes cape*
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*and thats the way it was in SMS too
*o_o
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*Do you want to see something?
*Actually no, you'll just shoot it straight to Dan and Oliver.
*Let me just say
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*If I swear I won`t
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*some things in SMS didn't work.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*will you trust me?
*;]
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*No.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*HATERRRRRRRRR
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*I know you do not trust me.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*-emo-
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*That's a fact.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:50 AM):
*o_o
*I trust you.
*o.O
Mudkip says (4:50 AM):
*Yeah.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:51 AM):
*You've never questioned the fact however.
Mudkip says (4:51 AM):
*I don't need to question it
*You see me as your subordinate
*You are rank 1, I am rank 4
*You are DB, I just hold events.
*I'm a speck of dust.
*Don't mind me.
*I just want to tell you
*some things is SMS didn't work out.
*Don't be a San.
*When you are like Light
*and hold virtual lives in your hands
*VIRTUAL, yes.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*o_o
*LOL don`t be a San
*No I won`t be a san.
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*But you might as well be Deathnote with your unban or ban.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*HONESTLY
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*Yes
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*RANKS, are just
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*I'M SERIOUS, YOU READ DEATHNOTE. LIGHT HAD GOOD INTENTIONS AND GOT SCREWED OVER.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*different ways of saying who oliver trusts. IMO of course
*>..
*...
*WOW
*OMG
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*One person can't try to do EVERYTHING.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*DONT TELL ME
*YOUR SAYING
*You were on Light's side?~
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*You do your best but
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*?!*
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*Of course I was
*are you stupid?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:52 AM):
*THE WHOLE POINT WAS HIM DYING
Mudkip says (4:52 AM):
*Light was the best character
*NO IT WASN'T
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*L WAS.
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*THE POINT WAS
*HE ATTEMPTED TO FULFILL HIS DREAM.
*Although I disagree with some manipulation
*in his position
*I would do the sam.e
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*BAD intentions
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*same.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*TERRIBLE
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*NO.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*intetions
*YES
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*Okay
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*HE KILLED
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*let's
*not
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*HIS OWN
*FUCKING
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*get into this.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*FATHER
*O__O
*EXPLAIN THAT
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*I'M TALKING ABOUT
*THE BEGINNING LIGHT
*FROM THE BEGINNING
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*Oh.
*Oh
*okay
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*WHEN HE ONLY KILLS CRIMINALS.
*I agree with him
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*in that case
*i agree.
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*until he goes megalomaniac.
*Good.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*until he got insane.
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*Now.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:53 AM):
*Yes.
Mudkip says (4:53 AM):
*I see you
*You are high ranking
*Oliver trusts you
Mudkip says (4:54 AM):
*You don't know a line of code but you have DB
*That is because you have connections.
*Now.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:54 AM):
*okay
*there is
*2 things
*I have to say
*about that.
Mudkip says (4:54 AM):
*Go on
*;D
*Am I wrong?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:54 AM):
*1. Line of code = Rules and, basic common sense right? I KNOW THAT.
2. Connections ? WTF.
Mudkip says (4:54 AM):
*1 - I mean coding. You read scripts, make edits?
*2 - I'm just saying, you're up there, and I'm down here.
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*But most importantly
*I want to stress
*that you
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*1. DB isn`t always for codes and scripts and edits.
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*are the decision maker.
*Okay, let's just ignore that for now
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*2. Connections is a totally different meaning from what you jsut said.
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*Fine
*whatever
*wrong word
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*Connections is like, hes my best--
*WAIT
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*ON TOPIC
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*WAIT
*WAIT
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*ON TOPIC PLEASE
*...
*Fine
*Go
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*This sohuld be
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*Josie used Quick Attack!
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*the other way around
Mudkip says (4:55 AM):
*What
*Why is that?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:55 AM):
*You've known Oliver longer.
Mudkip says (4:56 AM):
*True.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:56 AM):
*You know how to do scripts and all that shit
Mudkip says (4:56 AM):
*And yet I'm not a girl, so I can't get anywhere?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:56 AM):
*RACIST.
Mudkip says (4:56 AM):
*Aha!
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:56 AM):
*I MEAN
*SEXIST.
Mudkip says (4:56 AM):
*Are you seeing the base of this?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:56 AM):
*I highly doubt Oliver is sexist.
Mudkip says (4:56 AM):
*Oliver runs his server the way he wants it run.
*I want the server to be run the way a great server would be run.
*Oliver is the owner.
*I am a helper.
*However
*I get to talk to you.
*You are his unban helper.
Mudkip says (4:57 AM):
*You make decisions regarding unbans.
*Now, you know what the importance of unbans are, right?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:57 AM):
*-- okay random like
*thought
*and statement / w/e
*You are fun to talk to :D
*LOL k go on
Mudkip says (4:57 AM):
*Hm.
*I may or may not be Kira.
*BD
*8D
Mudkip says (4:58 AM):
*Shit can't find hotkey
*anyhow
*When you unban someone
*you do one of several things.
*Firstly, you return a player to the server.
*If San did not unban me, I would not be here
*a lot of things would be different, at least for me
*I would be a lot better at math X_X
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:58 AM):
*Just a question
*Minnie banned you right
Mudkip says (4:58 AM):
*Secondly, you get donations.
*Yes
*10 dollars for the unban
*or
Mudkip says (4:59 AM):
*more players = more votes
*more votes = more players who see us
*more players total = more money
*more money = better server
*better server = more allure
*more allure = more players
*Loop.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:59 AM):
*Kay.
Mudkip says (4:59 AM):
*That's how SMS got big
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:59 AM):
*--
Mudkip says (4:59 AM):
*That's how it fell.
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:59 AM):
*Exactly.
Mudkip says (4:59 AM):
*With me so far?
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:59 AM):
*Every player is unbanned, probably liar
*but they donated
*So community becomes fucked
Mudkip says (4:59 AM):
*So me, little schemer, and yo
*you
*high and mighty
juicy juicy juice josie says (4:59 AM):
*Now, I want to think
Mudkip says (5:00 AM):
*What you do
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:00 AM):
*..
Mudkip says (5:00 AM):
*is decisions.
*Unban or banned.
*Rejected.
*Unbanned !
*Rejected !
*What I do
*is think.
*That's what I do.
*Calculate.
*Anticipate.
*I am a schemer
*and I scheme.
*If I could I would crouch and hold stuff with two finers.
*fingers.
*But that's awkward.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:01 AM):
*o_o
Mudkip says (5:01 AM):
*When you see regular ban appeals
*you go ahead
*and say
*Okay
*blah did blah
*that's pretty bad
*like I said earler
*earlier
*3 factors.
*This is serious stuff.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:01 AM):
*Okay wait
*Okay wait wait wait
Mudkip says (5:01 AM):
*Seriousness of crime - Chance they commited it - Ramifications.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:01 AM):
*This question will kinda fast forward everything.
Mudkip says (5:01 AM):
*X - Y - Z
*Okay what?
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:02 AM):
*What is the point of doing that, getting their hopes high, whether they're lying or not, in the end, it doesn`t even matter.
Mudkip says (5:02 AM):
*It does matter.
*It matters a lot.
*If they lie
*they stay banned.
*If they tell the truth
*they are rewarded
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:02 AM):
*o_O
Mudkip says (5:02 AM):
*on the off chance you leave an innocent banned
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:02 AM):
*No they're not. :|
Mudkip says (5:02 AM):
*or a guilty unbanned
*...
*Look
Mudkip says (5:03 AM):
*When I was banned
*and Nick helped me get back
*it was incredible.
*I was excited.
*Elated.
*Joyous.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:03 AM):
*What did he say.
Mudkip says (5:03 AM):
*He said
*This guy wasn't hacking, he was in my event, I saw him.
*Basically.
*One sentence.
*But he helped me out
*and that was enough.
*Likewise
*Hope, false hope or not, i shope
*is hope
*it's true
Mudkip says (5:04 AM):
*you don't want this to be swamped up
*like the legal system
*if you want me to stop posting
*directly
*I ask you
*to let me do two things.
*Or let me do one, and you do two.
*Is that okay?
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:04 AM):
*Which is?
Mudkip says (5:04 AM):
*You have to let me talk to you on MSN
*if I disagree or want to say something about a ban appeal
Mudkip says (5:05 AM):
*whether or not you closed it
*For you
*Most importantly
*I want you to think
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:05 AM):
*Well
Mudkip says (5:05 AM):
*whenever you read a ban appeal
*X Y Z
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:05 AM):
*you know about
*that kiper early?
Mudkip says (5:05 AM):
*Yeah
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:05 AM):
*earlier*
*Oliver will choose whether to unban or not
Mudkip says (5:05 AM):
*He is King
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:05 AM):
*So. sometimes, its not even the unbanner's choice.
Mudkip says (5:05 AM):
*No matter what happens, he has the final word.
*It's his server.
*BUT.
Mudkip says (5:06 AM):
*In the name of JUSTICE!
*We try to make things fair
*so let me finish.
*You have to consider ban appeals
*for the third time
*Crime.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:06 AM):
*LMFAO
*WOW
*I FOUND OUT
*OKAY
*GOT IT
Mudkip says (5:06 AM):
*Possibility.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:06 AM):
*HES NOT UNBANNED CAUSE
*HIS SO CALLED BRO
Mudkip says (5:06 AM):
*...
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:06 AM):
*IS
*wait
*no
*im not gonna tell you
Mudkip says (5:06 AM):
*ItsBroBro?
*whatever
*irrelevant atm
*OKAY
*PAY ATTENTION
*FOURTH TIME
*EVEN IF YOU GOT IT
*THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO DO IT RIGHT
Mudkip says (5:07 AM):
*OR THE SERVER WILL SUCK
*LIKE WHAT HAPPENED TO SMS
*YOU KNOW THAT MUCH
*Crime - Chance of having done that - Ramifications.
*Hacking - 100% - Unban might continue, stay banned will stop
*If you're 100% sure of a hacker it's an obvious ban.
Mudkip says (5:08 AM):
*Hacking - 50% (claims brother) - Unban will return TWO players, but may let hack again, ban will remove two players, one who doesn't care, one who might really want to play.
*In this case you'd want to give a second chance, usually.
Mudkip says (5:09 AM):
*Hacking - 1% (minimal evidence, just a hunch) - Unban will restore the faith of the player (maybe GMs aren't all BAN WHORES after all) - Ban will drive player away.
*As we all know, more players = more money and so on
*So just use that system
*and think about what happens
*whatever you do.
*If Oliver intervenes, w/e
Mudkip says (5:11 AM):
*Who are you reporting to now?
*._.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:11 AM):
*oliver
*o.o
Mudkip says (5:11 AM):
*I'm not going to stay up all night to negotiate with everybody.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:11 AM):
*what?
*lol
Mudkip says (5:11 AM):
*Whatever he says, he has authority, so just ignore me
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:11 AM):
*..
Mudkip says (5:11 AM):
*if he says disregard
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:11 AM):
*no
*im asking
*something
*>_>;;;;;
Mudkip says (5:11 AM):
*Okay then
*Well
Mudkip says (5:12 AM):
*I'm going then
*;D
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:12 AM):
*o-o
*awe
Mudkip says (5:12 AM):
*You should go to sleep
*YOU NEED REST
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:12 AM):
*..
*dude
*its only 5:12AM 8'D
Mudkip says (5:12 AM):
*failure.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:12 AM):
*lol. you people
*in aussie sleep fucking early
Mudkip says (5:12 AM):
*I have practice tomorrow
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:12 AM):
*like, thats like when 5 year olds sleep.
*x|
Mudkip says (5:12 AM):
*I'm in California
*What the hell
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:12 AM):
*ohh.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:13 AM):
*LOL
Mudkip says (5:13 AM):
*EFIC PAIL
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:13 AM):
*I THOUGHT YOU WERE IN AUSSIEE.
*D8
Mudkip says (5:13 AM):
*>_<
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:13 AM):
*because you apparently
*helped daniel
*f3
*"HELPED"
Mudkip says (5:13 AM):
*With his homework?
*Yearrly
*Over the internetz
*you should have seen his grammar
*horrendous
*well
Mudkip says (5:14 AM):
*GN
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:14 AM):
*english?
*o.O
*okay good night
*..
*wait
*isnt it lik
*2am there
*= =
Mudkip says (5:14 AM):
*Yes
*it is
*Why yes it is.
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:14 AM):
*WOW
*LOL
Mudkip says (5:14 AM):
*Winnar
juicy juicy juice josie says (5:14 AM):
*xD k night Gl

... that made my browser froze like, 5 times.


5:30 AM


Sunday, August 9, 2009

very much.
and like gaia . so.
yeah.
uh huh . um. i`ll.
be. going. now.


mmm.
i trust you that you meant forever.
and if you know me, i will keep my word.


10:14 PM



im just a toy.
''because you`re bored"

YOU KNOW I`LL DIE WITHOUT YOU.
AND YET YOU SAID SOMETHING LIKE THAT
TO TOP IT OFF, YOU THINK THAT I WILL TALK TO YOU
ACCORDING TO THE TIMES YOU WANT.
WHA
WHA.




starting in 30 min caz im bored and thats the only number that comes in mind

thats the only number that comes to mind. THAT PROVES YOU OBVIOUSLY YOU DONT CARE.
AND YOUR BORED, IM SOME KIND OF TOY. I ASKED YOU TO CONFIRM IT , JUST IN CASE YOU MEANT SOMETHING ELSE. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU
IM A PERSON
I HAVE FEELINGS

So you're going to talk with me, til` 1:30 and then you`ll not talk anymore.
AT all.


CONFIRMATION. T_T <- IM DROWNING IN TEARS HERE Cause your bored?


yes until you make up

I FUCKED STATED I`M NOT MAKING UP
IM DEDICATED TO MY WORDS. YOU SHOULD FUCKING KNOW THAT

no i will not accept her apology.

WHAT FUCKING PART OF THAT DONT YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND

WHAT HURT MY HEART THE MOST.;

Why not just start now?
Cause your bored?
yes and i got no one to talk to

FUCK IT.


1:04 AM



WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOUR THE FUCKING BOSS OF ME ?
YES. YOU ARE RETARDED, YOU KNOW WHAT, I GIVE UP.
YOU DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME.
YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT YOURSELF.

THIS IS TO YOU KEVIN. TO YOU. FUCK IT

1:01 AM


Saturday, August 8, 2009

eugh.
how dare you .
you cancel on me last minute.
when you knew i was so looking forward to it.

and you.
you know i was pissed in the morning
i even told you last night
you even had to get on my nerves by saying i have no friends
implying, w/e you`re a fucktard.
sadly i have to talk to you sooner or later
school shit.

and
i`m sorry for hurting you
but i can't help it.
today
was
worst
day
ever


and you.
you didn't hurt just one person.
you hurt two.
i hope you feel satisfied.


5:05 PM


Friday, August 7, 2009

i think i just may be bisexual.






3:15 PM



are dating.
they make a cute couple ! im so happy for them :)
cons - jason is boring . long distance
pros - jason is happy, he smiles and talks
amy is happy. alas.

rawr i felt really overwhelmed.
GAIA GAVE US OUR PURPLE EYES BACKK!

AND REALLY CUTE NEW ONES. ~♥~

i REALLY like this new look. but kinda got bored of it already.

my eyes, on ^ IS SO CUTE ♥
they're called, Chuu eyes ! :squee:

-- anywho . logging off, its 3:13AM and i`m actually tired. ><
forums still down..


3:10 AM


Wednesday, August 5, 2009

i thought i was sick of my blogskin.
i was wrong .

I LOVE HEY MONDAYS. (:
well sadly
i've been on gaia too much . ._.;;
I LOVE THE AT ♥ ):
& , i miss everyone on maple .
i`m on less . i feel so useless ! i don't want to disappoint anyone .
but addiction is hard to break :/

HEY MONDAYS - ARIZONA . ♥
how i`m feeling.



i'm sick of the phone, phone calls every night. >:
but i love talking to kevin. he's so sweet and funny. eeyaeh .

i`ve been more emotional this year, and i feel like anyone could break me.
anyone . :/


====
===
==
today was fun.
pool with teresa & kevin. ♥
and holy shit i went from 900k to 400k! T_T;
but i love my rockin` avi. ♥
... okay back on topicc .

we were at the pool, talking, playing around,
and i need to learn how to swim more. >:
eeeppppppp . w / e . :/
i m worried about my future. X|


11:53 PM


Monday, August 3, 2009

yesterday we talked about going to pmall.
so we went . amy felt dead. i kinda felt offended, but i knew what she was going through.
but she didn't really make teresa and us feel.. ''welcome''


flip. i`ll finish up later ^
the coal sprite inflated .
it was 80k this morning, its 170k now.
FML. >_>


10:01 PM



stupid orphan. D<
i want to go watch it, and i can`t sleep because of it .


today, amy and jason and kevin went to fairview to watch movies.
and didn't invite me ._.; i felt so sad.

and , she kissed him X| wooooooooooow.
bold move mhan, bold move..

so me teresa kevin jason amy and alena are going to pmall tomorrow ! :)
-- well.. in.. 6 hours. and i haven`t slept yet. only for about an hour.. :/

-sigh-


nts; never drink ice cold water after you wake up.
knowing you are not here beside me, a part of me dies.

so you know what i`m going to try to do to make me fall asleep?!
tektek. THAT'S WHAT I`M DOING. -face palm-

roar progress of my avatar.

yeah. gaia . ; u;

okay well it seems as if Timmy's on ! time to bug him about my problems ! >)


4:42 AM


Sunday, August 2, 2009

so its time to start over.

most embarrassing wake-up call ever. D:
SHANEEN AND NICK WOKE ME UP. WHEN I WAS SLEEPING.
MY WINDOW WAS WIDE OPEN.
thank god i have curtains . but still !


OTL MAN. JUST, OTL. T//////T

& apparently my ''bestest friend ever'' . I DON`T KNOW YOU . OTL


2:54 PM