Thursday, July 30, 2009
I hate home.
I hate it .
I hate it .
everything just had to go wrong.
catching up on old updates, to make me smile. :)
saturday, july 25th 2009.
he got me a heart-necklace.
♥
thursday, july 30, 2009.
... okay. i forget.
i don`t feel like blogging right now .
i`ll.. brb.
going to get some rest.
saturday, july 25th 2009.
kevin exnay on teh' blurtay.
♥
thursday, july 30, 2009.
... okay. i forget.
i don`t feel like blogging right now .
i`ll.. brb.
going to get some rest.
♥ 11:49 PM
Monday, July 27, 2009
ksowhasup?
in the morning, i woke up early, thinking i`d head over to kevin's place.
then teresa invited me for some girl-time . [ i did want to but ... >< ]
amy broke up with dave.
i felt really bad for her, she was in denial the whole morning . so i said, LETS GO TO KEVINS !
and then when we did .. he left for my place .__.''
i was like . -shot- holy shit . embarrasingg... f**k yoo !
& then so we went back, walked around and found him . TOTAL OF ONE HOURR ! ):
then , amy & kev came to my place to chill.
they ate dinner.. faster than me . -OTL-
i had the smallest bowl amount too. ): // i`m so petite . ♥
anyway . >__>
vincent came over. AHA HE'S SO CUTE .
me and kevin both feel bad for amy . D:
i recorded the cutest thing, EVER to grace my camera. :)
♥
i`m on less now . maybe ' because summer's just gonna get started .
like seriously , what will tomorrow bring next? :)
.. back on gaia . fuckit . addiction xxx♥xxx [ bad thing ]
-sigh- that's just sad. like seriously .
me and kevin were like laughing HAARDDD though. :)
yep. so today was the day .
what will tomorrow bring? (;
in the morning, i woke up early, thinking i`d head over to kevin's place.
then teresa invited me for some girl-time . [ i did want to but ... >< ]
amy broke up with dave.
i felt really bad for her, she was in denial the whole morning . so i said, LETS GO TO KEVINS !
and then when we did .. he left for my place .__.''
i was like . -shot- holy shit . embarrasingg... f**k yoo !
& then so we went back, walked around and found him . TOTAL OF ONE HOURR ! ):
then , amy & kev came to my place to chill.
they ate dinner.. faster than me . -OTL-
i had the smallest bowl amount too. ): // i`m so petite . ♥
anyway . >__>
vincent came over. AHA HE'S SO CUTE .
me and kevin both feel bad for amy . D:
i recorded the cutest thing, EVER to grace my camera. :)
♥
i`m on less now . maybe ' because summer's just gonna get started .
like seriously , what will tomorrow bring next? :)
.. back on gaia . fuckit . addiction xxx♥xxx [ bad thing ]
-sigh- that's just sad. like seriously .
me and kevin were like laughing HAARDDD though. :)
yep. so today was the day .
what will tomorrow bring? (;
♥ 9:08 PM
baby, you make me laugh ,
and you make me cry .
what's the matter with you?
or is it just me? j wj
and you make me cry .
what's the matter with you?
or is it just me? j wj
:/ metaphors . y`know .
---
[ warning . can be scarily creepy & motherly.
oh and cheesy. don`t forget the crackers ! :) ]
---
[ warning . can be scarily creepy & motherly.
oh and cheesy. don`t forget the crackers ! :) ]
honey, what's wrong with being yourself?
everybody is just amazing, the way they are .
even if they are jerks, and they do complicate .
what is luck?
everybody is just amazing, the way they are .
even if they are jerks, and they do complicate .
what is luck?
♥ 4:15 AM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
so, i woke up at 3PM.
when i was POURING outside.
i bought pizza.
and it was hell, took me 1 hour, and i`m soaking wet.
when i was POURING outside.
i bought pizza.
and it was hell, took me 1 hour, and i`m soaking wet.
never again yo.
never, again.
never, again.
♥ 4:39 PM
Pearls Found:
-Poisonous Candy- /// 2 pearls
WindRiderNaya /// 2 pearls
purplerosesbeauty /// 1 pearl
Amizade /// 1 pearl
just in case
-Poisonous Candy- /// 2 pearls
WindRiderNaya /// 2 pearls
purplerosesbeauty /// 1 pearl
Amizade /// 1 pearl
just in case
♥ 5:13 AM
so, according to the title . here is what I did all day ~
1 - 5pm ; EATONS WITH JASON AND KEVIN.
because jason got lonely and bored
5pm - 7pm ; TESSY'S PLACE . (:
because kevin went to pick up his phone, and we stayed there .
DETAILS ABOUT TERESAS PLACE. ;p
because jason got lonely and bored
5pm - 7pm ; TESSY'S PLACE . (:
because kevin went to pick up his phone, and we stayed there .
DETAILS ABOUT TERESAS PLACE. ;p
Me and Kevin were drawing , until Chyzu called Teresa ! :) Horray !
Then Jason was hogging the computer, and .. broke up with Daisy . :|
[my best regards].
We all went to the living room and watched Iron Man. 8D
[but we were actually doing our nails, so, yeah. :)]
OH&BTW ; thank you ! :D they're gorgeous ! x3. gold & pink ~♥
& then, I had to leave after 7. awee.
overall, very fun . c:
Then Jason was hogging the computer, and .. broke up with Daisy . :|
[my best regards].
We all went to the living room and watched Iron Man. 8D
[but we were actually doing our nails, so, yeah. :)]
OH&BTW ; thank you ! :D they're gorgeous ! x3. gold & pink ~♥
& then, I had to leave after 7. awee.
overall, very fun . c:
since i felt guilty about not going to Mandarin..
7pm - 8pm ; wandering around lost at yonge ~ dundas -.-
and eventually i gave up and went home. ):
8pm - 9:40ishpm ; sleeping ♥
and then . woken up, and the phone rang. ^ ^;;
7pm - 8pm ; wandering around lost at yonge ~ dundas -.-
and eventually i gave up and went home. ):
8pm - 9:40ishpm ; sleeping ♥
and then . woken up, and the phone rang. ^ ^;;
details now .
OH MY GOD.
so before i put my glasses on and shit , teresa called me , with FREAKING NEWS.
Chiza called Teresa ALYSSA OR WHATEVER HER FACE IS.
OH . MY . GOD.
AND HE ALSO CALLED CHYZU ALYSSA TOO. LIKE WHAT THE SHIT?!
D: I don`t even know if he knew what he did wrong .
Oh god, I was speechless. I felt so bad for not being able to comfort DD8
and then, afterwards Chyzu called Teresa..
I think. I hope she feels better. :/
Okay, eugh despite my shortage of words right now, it`s really how my conversation on the phone went . something like this ; (OMG STUPID ERROR THING MAKES ME KEEP REDOING THE SHIT.)
so before i put my glasses on and shit , teresa called me , with FREAKING NEWS.
Chiza called Teresa ALYSSA OR WHATEVER HER FACE IS.
OH . MY . GOD.
AND HE ALSO CALLED CHYZU ALYSSA TOO. LIKE WHAT THE SHIT?!
D: I don`t even know if he knew what he did wrong .
Oh god, I was speechless. I felt so bad for not being able to comfort DD8
and then, afterwards Chyzu called Teresa..
I think. I hope she feels better. :/
Okay, eugh despite my shortage of words right now, it`s really how my conversation on the phone went . something like this ; (OMG STUPID ERROR THING MAKES ME KEEP REDOING THE SHIT.)
oh my god .
oh my god .
oh my god .
...
...
...
5 MINUTES LATER.
...
oh my god .
i felt so stupid, and eughh . >__>
oh god, i felt even more stupid when Chyzu's msn was like;
Mitsubachi <3 - busy lines...
I was like, oh i wonder what that could mean 8'D
and when I realized it.. OTL OTL OTL
yeah, like seriously i just hope she feels so much better.
I know Chiza is precious and all, but like seriously . It`s a girl thing .
guys could never understand.
most of them anyway.
oh god, i felt even more stupid when Chyzu's msn was like;
Mitsubachi <3 - busy lines...
I was like, oh i wonder what that could mean 8'D
and when I realized it.. OTL OTL OTL
yeah, like seriously i just hope she feels so much better.
I know Chiza is precious and all, but like seriously . It`s a girl thing .
guys could never understand.
most of them anyway.
♥ 2:31 AM
Friday, July 24, 2009
(y) i hope you blow out those candles right . ♥
-sigh-
stress of holding her surprise party. (:
it' didn`t turn out SO great, like ahmazing ' but i`m a perfectionest so ;
at least everybody got together. (:
i hope she enjoyed it . i`m kinda sad i kinda left for a bit .
had to do stuff then i totally forgot . X|
♥ regardless shirlhay, i love yewwwww.
and yeah, we do need to hang more . );
yep . ummmmmmmmmm . and tonight was pretty fun .
gee , thirteen year old guys ' are annoying .
i`ve jsut never brought myself out to notice it . i feel as if i`m different from the others.
aside from being the youngest. i feel kind'a sorry that most girls mature faster than boys, physically and mentally . :/
-sigh-
stress of holding her surprise party. (:
it' didn`t turn out SO great, like ahmazing ' but i`m a perfectionest so ;
at least everybody got together. (:
i hope she enjoyed it . i`m kinda sad i kinda left for a bit .
had to do stuff then i totally forgot . X|
♥ regardless shirlhay, i love yewwwww.
and yeah, we do need to hang more . );
yep . ummmmmmmmmm . and tonight was pretty fun .
gee , thirteen year old guys ' are annoying .
i`ve jsut never brought myself out to notice it . i feel as if i`m different from the others.
aside from being the youngest. i feel kind'a sorry that most girls mature faster than boys, physically and mentally . :/
my heart is pounding . it`s on a steady beat .
when will you, come and make me ?
when will you, come and break me ?
only time will tell, as i write this down, another minute of wasting time
i just can't stand your lies.
my friend is such a good poem writer.
i feel sad for her though, her life has been scarred, many times.
i become more sensitive, as a grab on and wait .
i don`t carry out my frustration by anger, i let it all out, as i drown in tears.
♥
i feel sad for her though, her life has been scarred, many times.
i become more sensitive, as a grab on and wait .
i don`t carry out my frustration by anger, i let it all out, as i drown in tears.
♥
when will you realize i`m not actually here? :)
- ghost.
- ghost.
♥ 12:39 AM
Thursday, July 23, 2009
with kevin, & MY BLOGSPOT LAYOUTT. (:
i`m actually very proud .
back to the original black, gray, white and red ! horray horray.
so ; BRB. :)
i`m actually very proud .
back to the original black, gray, white and red ! horray horray.
so ; BRB. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY WHIRLEY . I LAHV YOU.
♥ 5:46 PM
is a sin.
but i just can't help myself.
-- in this case, it's nothing like hate . it's not a wish either .
ugh i'm just strange . and i've got to get this out of my head.
it's driving me INSANE .
so who she is, will be identified as she because i`m a chicken. yep.
if' you find out who it is, just to tell you , `im not a poser . at least, not literally. x)
if you ask me about her i will kindly reveal. if i'm in a good mood ! :)
she is gorgeous.
hands down, GORGEOUS.
she is smart. it counts' because i know there is a lot of people that are smart, but she is like, surpassing . .
she has almost everything, i ever wanted .
the freedom , the mind, the spirit, it's so inspiring .
yep , ' i`m no poser though . what i am, is what i am . c:
anyway' its 3AM.
i became nocturnal; and i`m waiting for one more call .
-sigh-
but i just can't help myself.
-- in this case, it's nothing like hate . it's not a wish either .
ugh i'm just strange . and i've got to get this out of my head.
it's driving me INSANE .
so who she is, will be identified as she because i`m a chicken. yep.
if' you find out who it is, just to tell you , `im not a poser . at least, not literally. x)
if you ask me about her i will kindly reveal. if i'm in a good mood ! :)
she is gorgeous.
hands down, GORGEOUS.
she is smart. it counts' because i know there is a lot of people that are smart, but she is like, surpassing . .
she has almost everything, i ever wanted .
the freedom , the mind, the spirit, it's so inspiring .
yep , ' i`m no poser though . what i am, is what i am . c:
anyway' its 3AM.
i became nocturnal; and i`m waiting for one more call .
-sigh-
no matter what happens .
i will never be good enough for you.
♥ 2:47 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
okay .so this will be a longgggg blog post .
I'M NOT GOING TO VIETNAM. T 0T;;
okay , in one way i'm super duper happy . because i won't miss my ani with my baby. (:
I'M NOT GOING TO VIETNAM. T 0T;;
okay , in one way i'm super duper happy . because i won't miss my ani with my baby. (:
and another way; i'm kind-of choking as i type this .
i miss my grandmother's from my dad's side funeral . i was spending ALL night, editing, drawing and blogging my new layout, until my aunt called .
i miss my grandmother's from my dad's side funeral . i was spending ALL night, editing, drawing and blogging my new layout, until my aunt called .
me : auntie are we going yet? oO; my dad hasn't called .
auntie: i don't know if you should go..
me : what do you mean? didn't you pack all my stuff already?
auntie: yeah, but what if it's too much for you? too scary ? maybe it's best if you don't go. do you want to go?
me : i don't mind . ( bad answer)
-hangs up on me-
and i was like. O__O
homfg what'd i do? ! D:
then later. i had a long chat with my other aunt
about going or not, and about death :/
so. she's like, you're not going to come, tell your dad we're at the airport if he doesn't know where to find us.
:| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i don't know what the crap is happening ! I'm not too young ! D:
:| so now im going to wait. >__>
homfg what'd i do? ! D:
then later. i had a long chat with my other aunt
about going or not, and about death :/
so. she's like, you're not going to come, tell your dad we're at the airport if he doesn't know where to find us.
:| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i don't know what the crap is happening ! I'm not too young ! D:
:| so now im going to wait. >__>
♥ 11:38 PM
so today will be the last day before i blog again for 4 whole days.
kevin's sleeping in mah room . > u<; oh he's so cute, it's too hard to resist not taking a picture.
kevin's sleeping in mah room . > u<; oh he's so cute, it's too hard to resist not taking a picture.
testing something .
oh yeah, new blog layout ! (:
HOWDOYOULIKEITBBYS?
it's simple . i ran down with the cuteness and all touchy and calm .
i have too many moodswings . ]: more than one blogskin will not fit me .
but this skin, gives me memories . - sigh- (:
nonetheless;
ironically , me and kevin stayed up til 6AMish ~ 7AMish.
and now hes at my place, SLEEPING .
ironically , me and kevin stayed up til 6AMish ~ 7AMish.
and now hes at my place, SLEEPING .
OH HES TOO CUTE . 
argh ! can't find the proper brown panda emoticon > n<;
brb :)
♥ 2:49 PM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
now i have to go somewhere , and i'm not back til' t he fucking 25th.
FML.
FML.
i miss him.
♥ 4:24 PM
Monday, July 20, 2009
FML.
i slept 9 hours . -sigh-
i slept 9 hours . -sigh-
FML.
the good thing about it is that we're going to hang out with teresa ! :)
she's getting a large streak, even though she's not supposed to . :D
i can't wait to see what it looks like .
FML.
remember my curfew is 8. OTL
FML.
he's still mad .
i don't know . i feel,
g u i l t y .
the good thing about it is that we're going to hang out with teresa ! :)
she's getting a large streak, even though she's not supposed to . :D
i can't wait to see what it looks like .
FML.
remember my curfew is 8. OTL
FML.
he's still mad .
i don't know . i feel,
g u i l t y .
♥ 5:04 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
that was really annoying type of like, capslock and caps on. anyway.
> u< today and yesterday really was a better day ~
it feels so nice just to like, ''chillax'' though .
i just hope nobody hates me . > n<; i are stop the mean-ness . but;
> u< today and yesterday really was a better day ~
it feels so nice just to like, ''chillax'' though .
i just hope nobody hates me . > n<; i are stop the mean-ness . but;
trying to calm self, if i are over-worked. :)
♥
♥
♥ 11:28 PM
Saturday, July 18, 2009
I love Pikachu's epic cute/ebilness. Like a little stuffed animal that makes you want to pinch its cheeks.
And then you die by electrocution.
And then you die by electrocution.
♥ 6:23 PM
am i trying to die ?
what the fuck is wrong with me .
what the fuck is wrong with me .
♥ 6:03 PM
and i had this awesome convo with ryan;;
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:D
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♥ 5:29 PM
god fuckit , i know you're always at work.
you know the answer already, yet you always keep asking me !
well, i don't have a daughter !
and of course i feel alone . i still remember the words that will scar me for life .
you've spoiled me . but' if you think about it, you've never spent any time with me, the starting of this year. that's why you let me go out with my friends, so i don't feel "lonely" no more .
bullshit .
you know the answer already, yet you always keep asking me !
are you okay? because' i'm always at work.
you know, i don't want you to feel alone,
you have grandma .
--
have you turned bad?
because i haven't had time to give judgement because of work ?
but that's why you should focus on your studies and you won't have to work as hard as me, spend time with your daughter.
well, i don't have a daughter !
and of course i feel alone . i still remember the words that will scar me for life .
you've spoiled me . but' if you think about it, you've never spent any time with me, the starting of this year. that's why you let me go out with my friends, so i don't feel "lonely" no more .
bullshit .
i don't care that you have work, i KNOW you care about me .
but it's obvious that i am lonely without you .
you come right home, then you go to sleep ! i NEVER can talk to you .
and when you ask me these stupid-ass questions ;
it makes me wonder, why am i still here.
but it's obvious that i am lonely without you .
you come right home, then you go to sleep ! i NEVER can talk to you .
and when you ask me these stupid-ass questions ;
-- are you mad at me ?
-- do you have anything you want to talk about ?
it makes me wonder, why am i still here.
you've hurt me enough.
stop bringing memories back .
i don't want to share anything with you.
i don't want to look at you.
stop bringing memories back .
i don't want to share anything with you.
i don't want to look at you.
♥ 4:18 PM
i think i just broke myself.
it was my own fault .
i've deactivated my facebook.
i had a nightmare.
of course though, it was all my fault .
kevin li was dating sammi la .
and i was dating , whoever sammi la is dating now .
sorry dude , but that's just PLAIN creepy .
and to be honest, this was
my scariest nightmare,
EVER.
it was my own fault .
i've deactivated my facebook.
i had a nightmare.
of course though, it was all my fault .
kevin li was dating sammi la .
and i was dating , whoever sammi la is dating now .
sorry dude , but that's just PLAIN creepy .
and to be honest, this was
my scariest nightmare,
EVER.
i don't want to lose you.
i fail at the game of love . i don't want to give up.
why, why am i like this.
i have too many frequent mood swings.
ugh, FMYSELF.
i fail at the game of love . i don't want to give up.
why, why am i like this.
i have too many frequent mood swings.
ugh, FMYSELF.
♥ 3:28 PM
so yeah i'm just totally testing this majiggy. (:
♥ 4:42 AM
but in return.
you get broken.
you get broken.
fml.
i'm near the end.
i've done everything i can.
but in the end, it doesn't even matter .
i've tried so hard to lose it all.
i am, who i am .
i can't even cry anymore.
i ran out of tears .
just maybe, i gave them to you.
i'm near the end.
i've done everything i can.
but in the end, it doesn't even matter .
i've tried so hard to lose it all.
i am, who i am .
i can't even cry anymore.
i ran out of tears .
just maybe, i gave them to you.
♥ 3:14 AM
Friday, July 17, 2009
i'm just going to trust my heart now.
i KNOW i'm trustworthy.
i KNOW i'm innocent.
so why the shit do i feel so bad?
FML .
even still you were joking .
too many problems . gah
i KNOW i'm trustworthy.
i KNOW i'm innocent.
so why the shit do i feel so bad?
FML .
even still you were joking .
too many problems . gah
and also.
grandma's crippled.
great.
i feel , so terrible, that i can't do anything, and i think i'm just going to cry now..
why does this have to happen to me?
and i'm glad.
daniel's not afraid of me .
and laughs at the idea that people are.
i just feel , so bad right now .
i'm going to sign off . -__-;;
grandma's crippled.
great.
i feel , so terrible, that i can't do anything, and i think i'm just going to cry now..
why does this have to happen to me?
and i'm glad.
daniel's not afraid of me .
and laughs at the idea that people are.
i just feel , so bad right now .
i'm going to sign off . -__-;;
♥ 10:15 PM
brb. i'll make this a fricking huge post later.
♥ 4:03 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
so at last minute, i couldn't go to pmall . BROOKEE .
then ' Michelle told me that she and Diana were going to EATONS.
i can go, caus ' its not too far. (x . so i went ~ aha; ♥
then ' Michelle told me that she and Diana were going to EATONS.
i can go, caus ' its not too far. (x . so i went ~ aha; ♥
yoo . things i've learned today. (:
o1. michelle played SYDNEYMS.(:
o2. diana was/is much-of an nx fiend , like me. (:
o3. michelle's going to apply for GM in pokemon ! :) whoo , seriously you're so awesome.
i wish you good luck !
o4. that' i'm not allowed to do whatever without consulting my mum. whatever;
so another thing is . ♥
today was super fun . x)
i'd like to hang out with michelle & diana more .
no pictures . )x;
--- ;;
now i have to decorate my picture thread ! yippeee.
& then talk to people, lyk' yeeh.
i feel all girly . ♥
horray for shopping.
today was super fun . x)
i'd like to hang out with michelle & diana more .
no pictures . )x;
--- ;;
now i have to decorate my picture thread ! yippeee.
& then talk to people, lyk' yeeh.
i feel all girly . ♥
horray for shopping.
ohyeah..
two more days. & nine more.
why do you care?
ew i share the same date as you.
whatever' you're so not worth it.
two more days. & nine more.
why do you care?
ew i share the same date as you.
whatever' you're so not worth it.
♥ 7:12 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
yesterday at night, i cried.
i don't know why .
i felt so upset, and so alone.
i fell asleep shortly.
i woke up crying. i was really scared.
i don't remember what i dreamt of.
i left my room, and cuddled up in a ball.
then, i fell back asleep. i woke up, and did the usual things.
-- so aboutsydneyms pokemonms.
-- well. i'm going to go now, -- oh wait !
this person is amazing at animating. (:
watch this video. (:
amazing frames. & the song is so cute !
i don't know why .
i felt so upset, and so alone.
i fell asleep shortly.
i woke up crying. i was really scared.
i don't remember what i dreamt of.
i left my room, and cuddled up in a ball.
i miss him
he's going fishing.
i hope he has fun.
and doesn't forget i'm still here.
kevin.
wo.
ai.
ni.
never let me go..
O425O9. ♥
3 more days.
1O days left.
--
as for you.
you, made my life a total pain.
you're the one that made me cry.
made me hide all my feelings inside.
i don't know. i can't trust you anymore.
not. ever. again.
he's going fishing.
i hope he has fun.
and doesn't forget i'm still here.
kevin.
wo.
ai.
ni.
never let me go..
O425O9. ♥
3 more days.
1O days left.
--
as for you.
you, made my life a total pain.
you're the one that made me cry.
made me hide all my feelings inside.
i don't know. i can't trust you anymore.
not. ever. again.
then, i fell back asleep. i woke up, and did the usual things.
-- so about
aha, i missed everybody. ♥
and i'm glad that we're all back together. (:
there's joyce, shirley, ashley, oliver, daniel, timmy, khashi, sung, saraah , & more.
+ i met new people. (:
they're so nice, i'm trying to act as angelic as much as i can.
i guess i'm off to a bad start. right?
-- well. i'm going to go now, -- oh wait !
this person is amazing at animating. (:
watch this video. (:
amazing frames. & the song is so cute !
people are waiting for a musical chairs. ;)
so. toodles ! ♥ -- lol i keep telling shirley ALMOST DONE ! X)'
so. toodles ! ♥ -- lol i keep telling shirley ALMOST DONE ! X)'
JUST IN CASE ! (:
tomorrow ; thursday, july, 16th :: pmall with michelle, diana, peiyi & nancy.
saturday ; chill with daniel , & other people? (:
-- eatons or pmall. || HOPEFULLY ITS EATONS.
♥ 5:18 PM
and yeah' i've been sleeping around 4am - 5am nowadays.
2am is EARLY. :)
and waking up at like, 3pm. -.-'' -sigh-
so, nothing to differentt.
sofia makes me laugh, she kept like over 3ooo images and her computer died. awe, poor her. )x
so now she has to use my computer, and yeah today we were talking about memories ~
XDDDDDDDDDDDDD;; i miss my old days.
)'; -sniffles- i totally did not know mr. lui had a tongue piercing. lykmahgod. -__-
**** g2g.
2am is EARLY. :)
and waking up at like, 3pm. -.-'' -sigh-
so, nothing to differentt.
sofia makes me laugh, she kept like over 3ooo images and her computer died. awe, poor her. )x
so now she has to use my computer, and yeah today we were talking about memories ~
XDDDDDDDDDDDDD;; i miss my old days.
)'; -sniffles- i totally did not know mr. lui had a tongue piercing. lykmahgod. -__-
**** g2g.
♥ 4:20 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009
his words, make my dreams happen.
♥ 4:24 AM
Thursday, July 9, 2009
n un!
today was uber fun.
note to self ;; never wear a bathing suit under when going to the beach, EVER AGAIN.
wedgies are super painful. )':
okay so FIIIRSTTT.
the morning, before we got there.
kevin called me right when i went out, so i ran back in and picked up.
he thought we were meeting at 12.
then when i got there, he thought we meant RIVERDALE library.
xD and so we waited , again. n un''
x) it was fun talking' & shit though.
and then, we actually took the TTC because some of us were super lazy.
-points at myself- yeah. ;) kevin paid for the tickets.
XDD; LOL the 501 broke down, and got back up, before i was going to get my slurpee.
the nice man gave me a refund (: i was like awwe !!
cup noodles are YUMMY.
at the beach ~
i thought we would go into the water, but nooh, people just got tans and stuff
but i don't blame them, the water was ICE COLD.
waah i think i caught a cold too ><
we buried kevins legs.
then they buried me until up my neck. 8D it felt really nice.
and then i just started camwhoring . ~
it was fun ~ then we all went to mc donalds. X)
and and me, peiyi, rachel, teresa, sally, aliyah all left early, because most of us had to get home before like, 6? xD;; { including me }
btw guys ; i made it ! 6:06PM! ahaha. my grandma won't keep count. ♥
so afterwards, i waited for the TTC like, 15 minutes! so long that even timmy and kevin came back !
ughh and i took the 505 in the end. -__-''
-- now i'm home blogging.
i have a shit load of gaian work to do.
must. get. a. ramune. >:
note to self ;; never wear a bathing suit under when going to the beach, EVER AGAIN.
wedgies are super painful. )':
okay so FIIIRSTTT.
the morning, before we got there.
kevin called me right when i went out, so i ran back in and picked up.
he thought we were meeting at 12.
then when i got there, he thought we meant RIVERDALE library.
xD and so we waited , again. n un''
x) it was fun talking' & shit though.
and then, we actually took the TTC because some of us were super lazy.
-points at myself- yeah. ;) kevin paid for the tickets.
XDD; LOL the 501 broke down, and got back up, before i was going to get my slurpee.
the nice man gave me a refund (: i was like awwe !!
cup noodles are YUMMY.
at the beach ~
i thought we would go into the water, but nooh, people just got tans and stuff
but i don't blame them, the water was ICE COLD.
waah i think i caught a cold too ><
we buried kevins legs.
then they buried me until up my neck. 8D it felt really nice.
and then i just started camwhoring . ~
it was fun ~ then we all went to mc donalds. X)
and and me, peiyi, rachel, teresa, sally, aliyah all left early, because most of us had to get home before like, 6? xD;; { including me }
btw guys ; i made it ! 6:06PM! ahaha. my grandma won't keep count. ♥
so afterwards, i waited for the TTC like, 15 minutes! so long that even timmy and kevin came back !
ughh and i took the 505 in the end. -__-''
-- now i'm home blogging.
i have a shit load of gaian work to do.
must. get. a. ramune. >:
♥ 6:31 PM
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
MHeather198 (11:19:49 PM) : why the fuck did you blacklist llia?
JOSiEtea (11:20:08 PM) : she flamed at us. >__>''
JOSiEtea (11:20:10 PM) : broke the rules.
JOSiEtea (11:20:11 PM) : :/
MHeather198 (11:20:13 PM) : No, she didnt
JOSiEtea (11:20:15 PM) : o__o
MHeather198 (11:20:31 PM) : you changed the time, she was pissed. She has the right to be pissed
JOSiEtea (11:21:21 PM) : >__> but she still flamed. It IS considered flaming. I asked Mimi & Epic. :/ Not necessarily all my
JOSiEtea (11:21:22 PM) : decision to
JOSiEtea (11:21:24 PM) : blacklist her.
JOSiEtea (11:21:26 PM) : X__X''
MHeather198 (11:21:33 PM) : thats not how you treat customers. You blacklist people when they refuse to stop
MHeather198 (11:22:27 PM) : you tell me what exactly she said, eh? I'm from SF I know flaming when I see it
MHeather198 (11:22:37 PM) : you have to beat llia and rape her fucking mother to get her to go off on you
JOSiEtea (11:23:48 PM) : In our view, it was considered flaming, not just my opinion. >__>''
MHeather198 (11:24:28 PM) : You changed it hours before the sale.
JOSiEtea (11:24:43 PM) : Did you read any of the comments we've made / especially mimis?
MHeather198 (11:24:51 PM) : I've been reading it
MHeather198 (11:24:57 PM) : and you were the ones being assholes to her
MHeather198 (11:25:03 PM) : immediately took the defensive
MHeather198 (11:25:09 PM) : 1. I TOLD epic llias timezone
MHeather198 (11:25:18 PM) : 2. epic was NAPPING and you decided to make the change
MHeather198 (11:25:25 PM) : 3. it was MERE HOURS before the fs
JOSiEtea (11:25:28 PM) : 1. epic didn't tell us!
JOSiEtea (11:25:46 PM) : 2. We didnt' know! Mimi had to work / do something and I was sleeping!
MHeather198 (11:25:53 PM) : I will tell you right now and I am serious she stays on the blacklist I fucking leave cause I know goddamn flaming and THAT ISNT IT
MHeather198 (11:26:21 PM) : now allow me to tell you there is NOTHING I hate more in all of bc than when someone criticizes a shop and EVERYONE gangbangs them and then they make ACCUSATIONS about someone they do not fucking know
MHeather198 (11:26:26 PM) : and that is exactly what ALL of you did
MHeather198 (11:27:10 PM) : you have a public shop, you take feedback or you go the hell home and give up. That is the nature of public endeavors.
MHeather198 (11:28:19 PM) : I will not work for a shop that treats ANYONE like that
MHeather198 (11:29:14 PM) : I -leave- places and ignore the bitches that do that shit. It's horrendous. Someone gets pissed off. Know what? It happens. But she wouldnt have gone as far as she did if you guys hadnt been saying it was ALL HER FAULT and shit
JOSiEtea (11:29:40 PM) : I just have to make this one comment; where did we say it was all her fault?
MHeather198 (11:29:47 PM) : must I find the quotes?
MHeather198 (11:30:23 PM) : you and others said repeatedly, her fault for not telling you her timezone, not your fault- her fault assuming anyone would cater to her, not your fault- her fault for not following the thread, not your fault..
MHeather198 (11:31:50 PM) : you know how to diffuse anger and bitchiness? Not with more bitchiness.
MHeather198 (11:31:57 PM) : and thats what you put out.
MHeather198 (11:32:37 PM) : and she wasnt the ONLY one confused by the change from what I saw
MHeather198 (11:33:15 PM) : look, I'm not saying I quit right now- but only honestly because epic is a good fucking person and I dont fuck good people
JOSiEtea (11:34:03 PM) : I said the time-zone thing. but you just said that you told epic.
She hadn't told me, so I'm sorry and I disregard that comment.
& with the anger and bitchiness? That's just my nature.
I'm at a loss for words. Yeah, cause' I suck.
Yeah, I know she wasn't the only one confused.
But she was the only one that spoke her mind, I also did the same thing.
She hadn't told me, so I'm sorry and I disregard that comment.
& with the anger and bitchiness? That's just my nature.
I'm at a loss for words. Yeah, cause' I suck.
Yeah, I know she wasn't the only one confused.
But she was the only one that spoke her mind, I also did the same thing.
MHeather198 (11:34:32 PM) : but should people be punished for speaking their minds?
JOSiEtea (11:35:34 PM) : No. They shouldn't have.
But to parts of people, it came across as flaming.
But to parts of people, it came across as flaming.
MHeather198 (11:36:24 PM) : Well try to read it from her point of view. the first post was politely confused. But nobody besides epic was apologetic AT ALL. It was immediately to the defense.
MHeather198 (11:36:50 PM) : of course if you are treated like a damned leper you will get a bit offended
JOSiEtea (11:36:52 PM) : Yeah, epic was the nicest one there.
JOSiEtea (11:36:55 PM) : But she also felt most hurt.
JOSiEtea (11:37:06 PM) : We were trying to stick up for her, make her feel better. >__>''
MHeather198 (11:37:38 PM) : epic had nothing to do with the decision, and she was the only one to apologize. Doesnt that strike you as wrong?
MHeather198 (11:38:07 PM) : just because shes the owner doesnt mean she should take the fall for everything
JOSiEtea (11:38:31 PM) : That does strike me as wrong, but I'm pretty sure I wasn't the one who changed the timezone, as we were confused.
MHeather198 (11:38:37 PM) : but she did because she was being responsible
MHeather198 (11:38:46 PM) : yes but you were involved in changing the type of FS
JOSiEtea (11:39:27 PM) : Actually. >__>;; I think it was Mimi who brought it up also.
Not trying to blame everything on "PERSON", it's the truth.
Not trying to blame everything on "PERSON", it's the truth.
JOSiEtea (11:39:29 PM) : >__>''
JOSiEtea (11:39:39 PM) : Mimi *brought it up first.
JOSiEtea (11:39:55 PM) : >__>'' I went with the flow.
I didn't know Llia's timezone' or ANYTHING. >__>
I didn't know Llia's timezone' or ANYTHING. >__>
MHeather198 (11:39:59 PM) : yes but as staff members you need to try and be professional.
MHeather198 (11:40:10 PM) : Just because someone suggests something doesnt mean it 100% has to happen
MHeather198 (11:40:22 PM) : I could suggest we shove mushrooms in our ears I dont expect anyone to listen to me
JOSiEtea (11:40:47 PM) : :| Mimi was in charge of the FS.
JOSiEtea (11:41:04 PM) : She needn't talk to me about it. >__>''
MHeather198 (11:41:17 PM) : so you cant say "Hey mimi, I dont think that would be a great idea."?
JOSiEtea (11:41:24 PM) : I didn't know!
MHeather198 (11:41:26 PM) : it was public in the thread..
JOSiEtea (11:41:54 PM) : What was public in the thread?
MHeather198 (11:42:03 PM) : her discussing changing the rules and type of flatsale
JOSiEtea (11:42:05 PM) : like I said, I didn't know Llia's timezone, or anybody else's
MHeather198 (11:42:11 PM) : TIMEZONE is not the issue
JOSiEtea (11:42:39 PM) : At that point it was, she missed it because she thought it'd be a 1 hour per techibi right?
MHeather198 (11:42:44 PM) : the issue is it was gonna be a time release flatsale but due to poor planning and laziness/inability to be around, you guys changed it to a plain speed flat
JOSiEtea (11:43:07 PM) : Yeah, I admit. Poor planning, but Laziness and Inability?
JOSiEtea (11:43:15 PM) : WE WERE WORKING OUR BUTTS OFF. >__>
MHeather198 (11:43:18 PM) : I forget what the reasons were
MHeather198 (11:43:23 PM) : I think someone couldnt be around all day
MHeather198 (11:43:29 PM) : and/or people didnt want to do it that way
MHeather198 (11:43:33 PM) : and some regs wanted to hoard
JOSiEtea (11:44:09 PM) : Either Epic or Mimi couldn't be around all day.
MHeather198 (11:44:12 PM) : so they were like YAY I DONT HAVE TO WAIT NOW
MHeather198 (11:45:01 PM) : ok now you CANT say you didnt know
JOSiEtea (11:45:07 PM) : What?
MHeather198 (11:45:12 PM) : cause I found a post by you asking epic to contact you about the change
MHeather198 (11:45:27 PM) : and emo was the one who posted the change
JOSiEtea (11:45:35 PM) : :| Post please?
JOSiEtea (11:46:24 PM) : Mimi told me about it. Like I said, I went with the flow.
JOSiEtea (11:46:27 PM) : I wanted to ask Epic
JOSiEtea (11:46:29 PM) : if it was alright.
JOSiEtea (11:46:32 PM) : Then she posted.
JOSiEtea (11:46:37 PM) : >__>
MHeather198 (11:47:05 PM) : look. You arent gonna take any responsibility. I get that. But being staff doesnt mean "sit down and go with everything suggested"
JOSiEtea (11:47:16 PM) : -__-
JOSiEtea (11:47:44 PM) : I thought it was just FINE.
JOSiEtea (11:48:37 PM) : How was I supposed to know, that somebody was going to get pissed?
MHeather198 (11:48:45 PM) : well maybe next time you should consider more than the three regs' opinions, who happen to be in-thread at the time, and who have been salivating over getting some cheebs for days
JOSiEtea (11:49:03 PM) : Who are the three regs? >__>
MHeather198 (11:49:18 PM) : Jasper, candy, korowyn
MHeather198 (11:49:21 PM) : *kirowyn
JOSiEtea (11:49:34 PM) : I didn't consider ANYBODY.
I thought people wouldn't mind!
I thought people wouldn't mind!
MHeather198 (11:49:46 PM) : for future reference, changing things less than 24hr in advance is a no-no
JOSiEtea (11:50:30 PM) : Thanks for that reference.
We're new, most likely, there'd be some confusion.
We're new, most likely, there'd be some confusion.
MHeather198 (11:50:35 PM) : but just so you know I am very displeased with your and mimi's conduct and if it werent for epic being a great person I'd say fuck it.
JOSiEtea (11:50:59 PM) : But I didn't expect something like this would happen. >__>''
JOSiEtea (11:51:06 PM) : Ok then.
MHeather198 (11:51:12 PM) : well then ask someone next time you're confused, alright?
MHeather198 (11:51:18 PM) : its not some immense thing to ask someone
JOSiEtea (11:51:22 PM) : Ask who?
JOSiEtea (11:51:24 PM) : Epic was the only one
JOSiEtea (11:51:27 PM) : She wasn't on.
MHeather198 (11:51:39 PM) : you can get advice from more than one person o.O
JOSiEtea (11:52:05 PM) : but who else would know? >__>
JOSiEtea (11:52:08 PM) : Not about the flatsale.
MHeather198 (11:52:44 PM) : I've worked at other shops before? I think some of the other colorists may have as well. Anyone who's been around can tell you changing stuff on a whim is pretty ick
JOSiEtea (11:53:14 PM) : We know that.
But this WAS OUR FIRST TIME.
But this WAS OUR FIRST TIME.
MHeather198 (11:53:25 PM) : its a public shop, so for better or for worse when making decisions you HAVE to consider others.
JOSiEtea (11:53:37 PM) : Mimi tried to consider everyone!
MHeather198 (11:54:02 PM) : yes.. its your first time. So you should be cautious and try to follow plans and not just do whatever strikes you as a good idea
MHeather198 (11:54:50 PM) : but whatever- I have stuff I need to do, and fortunately it's off of gaia. I'll see you whenever.
JOSiEtea (11:55:06 PM) : Good day.
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in summary: i just LOVE drama.
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in summary: i just LOVE drama.
♥ 11:56 PM
i feel .. like i'm a bother.
i'll stop blogging for a while. until I'll actually find out what happens
:| add JOSi3. new gaia. ><
i'll stop blogging for a while. until I'll actually find out what happens
:| add JOSi3. new gaia. ><
♥ 5:01 PM
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
i don't feel like wasting my time right now.
so i'll edit it later.
bitch -__-
so i'll edit it later.
bitch -__-
♥ 10:00 PM
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:| I did no such thing!
ugh. stupid gaia, well now i'm starting over.
FRESHH. (:
add up @ THEI2APIST.
shh. sexy username, i know. :)
shh. sexy username, i know. :)
♥ 1:59 AM
Monday, July 6, 2009
so me jason teresa and kevin are here at claires place :)
& we're talking about giant-sized bras.
it's hilarious.
we saw a woman with a huge ''rack'' on the way here.
so i'm like <<>
&& they're >> at the couches talking about stuffiess.
LOL @ TERESA;
t: i was fangirling over Mason Mun (GAHTHECUTESTBABYEVER)
j: are you horny?
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t: that was long ago and soo hilarious.
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i'm going to haveta' go now because Teresa wants to blog.
about her nightmare? x)
omfgg that f**king remind's mee. -.-''
ihave a huge to do list, WITH EXTRA THINGS - .-''
1. set up mah' shoppus.
2. clean up my room.
3. CERT THE DANG TECHIBIS
4. TEST BETA roaar.
++ kevin reminded me.
= n= stupid dad. called me outside to grab the remote when it was RIGHT next to him - -'
then. i said no,h e said he'll eat me .n.
♥ 2:13 PM